Patience, Personal Growth, Redemption, Reflections

Weather Alert! Storm Approaching!

Storm_cloudsSevere thunderstorms have been rolling across our state the last few days.  With high winds, blinding rain and even hail, they have been treacherous to say the least.  Yesterday, as I drove to work, traffic crawled at a snail’s pace because visibility was only about 2 feet!  I clinched the steering wheel with white knuckles and was exhausted by the time I arrived at my job.  I collapsed in my desk chair, thankful that I had made it.

Honestly, these storms have mirrored my insides.  A few days ago, while I was out-of-town, an emotional storm started rolling in and ravaged me in very familiar ways.  Old triggers were being set off and I felt out of control and like a wounded animal.  My mind and emotions could not seem to settle or find any peaceful calm place.  After an entire day of being in inner turmoil, I prayed, cried, yelled, and finally retreated to my bed thankful that I had made it.

I don’t understand days like these and I wish with every fiber of my being not to have any more of them.  Sadly, I know that I probably will and I am trying to gain as much insight as possible.  Here’s what I have come up with so far:

  • Being in unfamiliar settings can put me off kilter
  • Fears are opportunistic
  • I do not think in reasonable ways when I am off kilter
  • It’s ok to retreat to my room!
  • As I get older, my body handles stress in different and lesser ways
  • Nothing can snatch me out of the Father’s hand!
  • God does not love a future version of me, He loves me NOW!
  • Feelings do not always reflect the truth
  • God, like the good father He is, pities my broken and weak state

I am going to try to remember these truths for the next time.  I also want to remember that times of dysregulation and being out of kilter are a normal part of living in a fallen world.  I will also remember the words of Corrie Ten Boom:

“There is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still.”

 

heartache, Patience, Reflections, value

The Value of Tears

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Psalm 56:8 (NASB)

You have taken account of my wanderings;
Put my tears in Your bottle.
Are they not in Your book?

What do you keep a record of?  The birth of babies, holiday memories, special trips, good friends?  How about your sorrows or the crushing blows to your soul?  Do you chronicle the hours you spend being heart-broken and crying out to the Lord?   What about the endless nights where you cry until you have no more tears?  God keeps a record of not only our tears, but the anguish that caused them to flow.  He has given tears a holy status.

Be careful in not allowing yourself or others to cry when in extreme pain.  Tears are valuable.  They are the inexpressible words being spoken by our soul.  Tears are how are heart speaks when the pain is too great for our lips to describe.  God has seen every wound. Every heartache has been recorded in His book and our tears have been kept in a bottle. Even when we forget why we cry, he does not.  When we hurt, God is near; He is gathering our tears.

“There is no pit so deep that God’s love is not deeper still.” -Corrie Ten Boom

Living in Freedom, Patience, Personal Growth, Redemption, Reflections

With Great Patience

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2 Timothy 4:2

preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction.

Do you want to share more?  Do you want to be heard more?  Then focus on the phrase, “With great patience”.  How often do I ignore this important tidbit?  How often do I wrongly wield the Word of God too quickly with little or no understanding?  What does “Great Patience” look like? Or, more importantly, sound like?  I think great patience looks and sounds like a LOT of listening.

I find that most people are genuinely interested and inquisitive about spiritual matters.  After all, we are spiritual creatures.  Our innate sense of mortality and relationship to the spiritual realm compels us to ask questions and to find out more.  I also find that ALL people desire someone to be genuinely interested in THEM!  The number one way to demonstrate interest and give validation to another person is by listening more and saying less.  This approach allows us to then be intentional with what we do say.  We can then speak to what they have shared from their heart. By gaining trust and providing respect thru active listening, we then are often afforded more privileges to speak.  Active listening allows you to hear with the heart and speak with compassion.

Before we ‘preach the Word’, let us be slow to speak and quick to hear with GREAT PATIENCE.